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Posted by "Shaney" talk show host of "GETTING NAKED"

I'M LOST BUT STANDING IN MY KITCHEN-

Have you ever felt lost, yet were somewhere familiar like at home? How many times do we see with our own eyes what’s going on yet have no clue what just happened? What about when you make a solid plan to receive specific results and nothing turns out the way you expected? I’m not sure about you, but for me… when these have happened, I generally had an overwhelming feeling of ’WTF’ and stood dazed and confused until I could logically make up some reason to give my brain an answer that seemed to make sense. Because I didn’t know the truth. Obviously.

A person dies and their spirit goes to heaven right? Isn’t that the general rule and consensus that we all have been told? Of-course taking into account that that is only if you’ve been ‘good’ or the opposite is you’ve been ‘bad’ and your spirit goes to hell. This is a whole ‘nother subject that I will get into later because it has nothing to do with what I’m talking about right now. So, let that one go for the moment. What I’m talking about isn’t when a person dies and their spirit leaves their body. I’m going to introduce you to what happens when your spirit leaves your body when it is still alive. Huh? Yes. This happens. Your body is functioning like an empty tomb. The walking dead. No spirit inside… yet, heart is beating, lungs are breathing and you’re still driving your car to work.

Maybe this is where “we are spiritual beings having a human experience” truly comes into play. We are spirits embodied. Earth is just another plain of heaven. This confuses some people . Let me explain it to you like this: Although we all may live in Oregon, we don’t all live or come from the same town or even the same neighborhood. Heaven is like that. There are different ‘towns’. Earth is a suburb of heaven. The angels and the divine are here.  Everything we need for success and happiness is here. HERE. ON EARTH. But, like most of you I didn’t get this at all. Earth was where I was sent as a punishment. I couldn’t figure out why inside I felt like I was worthy of being loved. Worthy of having great things. Worthy of feeling at home; completely comfortable in my skin. Yet, the results were not of these. Ugh ugh. My life was not one of cheerios  and lucky charms. It was one of struggles and survival.  Not because I had a crummy life… but because my spirit was lost and I was not being here in wholeness. WHOLENESS. Whole body and spirit. It inhibited me from being able to give and receive those things in which your spirit consists of. Love, compassion, forgiveness, understanding, stability, abundance, worth, harmony, peace, joy, etc. With-out the part of me that sustained these there is no wonder I didn’t have them in fullness in my life.

How does this happen? How does our spirit leave our body yet we are clearly still here?

We all have heard of someone who experiences something traumatic and after that they are just ‘not the same’. Some are placed in mental institutions.  Some do drugs or drink as a way to self-medicate. Some are simply given a prescription and sent on their way to live as functionally as possible in a dysfunctional state. Some feel lost inside, but pretend to be fine on the out. Using all kinds of defense mechanisms like ego, control, know-it-all syndrome, religionolity, pretentiousness, or for me all the named plus simply being a big bitch to boot.

What about the person who simply has struggles from the get-go.  Comes into this world under maybe not so ideal circumstances. Struggles for basic needs to be met. Beaten down mentally and reinforced physically. Same results can occur; the feeling of being lost with the same defense mechanisms. EVERY single person does whatever it takes to cope with circumstances that are challenging. Some have more challenges than others… yet, they feel the same, causing the same pain, with the results potentially being the same. I can promise you that not one single person wakes up and says “Today, I’m going to make a really crummy decision that will cause myself and those around me heartache and pain. That sounds swell.” NO! Each and everyone one of us makes the best decision we can possibly make with the wisdom and experience that we have at the time. We ALL are doing our imperfect best each and everyday.

So what happens when our spirit leaves and we don’t know it. We find out… usually in unpleasant ways. I have been the master of my spirit escaping. Each and every time something would happen that would cause me pain, fear, trauma… my spirit felt it was unsafe to be here and it left. And I was the walking dead.   

Yet, deep inside each of us is at-least one cell that cries out ‘I deserve more than this’. And the journey to find yourself and your worth begins.